Cheryl Cole admits she had STI check after Ashley cheated
In an exclusive look at her new autobiography, Cheryl: My Story, Cheryl Cole admits that she had a STI check after finding out about husband Ashley’s infidelity.
The Sun have reported that Cheryl was being “chased by the paparazzi everywhere” even when she went to the clinic to get herself checked out.
“I had to face the fact that Ashley’s infidelity had been putting me at risk for a long time, and I had to put my mind at rest,” she wrote in the book.
Luckily, the Girls Aloud star was given the all clear, but she admits that her ’emotional health’ was still very much damaged.
In her own words, Cheryl describes the very first moment that she learned of Ashley’s cheating and how she dealt with it in the days, weeks and months following the revelations.
The 29-year-old star reveals how on January 24 2008, she was told about the allegations from head of publicity at record company Polydor, while Ashley was on the other line to his agent.
Cheryl revealed how she proceeded to read the story as it hit The Sun website at midnight and as a mixture of emotions set in, she couldn’t help but explode.
“Before I knew it, I was lashing out at Ashley in every way I possibly could,’ she explained. ‘I hit him in the face – I couldn’t help it. I was shaking him, kicking him, scratching his face, pushing and shoving him like I was a lunatic.”
Following a holiday to Thailand with band mates Kimberley Walsh and Nicola Roberts, she talked about her decision to give her marriage another go, however it wasn’t long before more women came forward and claimed they had also slept with the Chelsea footballer.
This was the final straw for Cheryl, and although she revealed that deep down she didn’t want to end their marriage, she knew the next step was divorce.
She reveals how about a week after Ashley had left he came round to collect some of his stuff and told her how he didn’t want their marriage to end.
“He sounded torn apart, completely. I felt sorry for him, because despite what he’d done he was still a person I’d loved more deeply than I’d ever loved anyone before, and he was suffering.
“I gave him a cuddle. He squeezed me and clung to me like a little boy. There was no screaming and shouting.
“He knew that divorcing him was not what I wanted, not really. But I couldn’t do it any more.”
“Part of me would always love Ashley, I realised,” she wrote.
“I had loved him so much that I couldn’t imagine a day when I would feel nothing for him.
“The difference now was that I also knew that there was so much water under the bridge that I would drown if I ever went back to him.”
Cheryl: My Story by Cheryl Cole is published by HarperCollins on October 11. Price £20 © Tara Entertainments Limited 2012
