Tulisa Contostavlos felt like “life was over” during drugs trial

Tulisa Contostavlos has revealed she felt like her “life was over” during her recent drugs trial.

Speaking this morning on Good Morning Britain, Tulisa spoke of her anguish after being charged with supplying class A drugs.

The former X Factor judge also revealed  that she considered taking her own life as a result of the accusations.

Last week, Southwark Crown Court heard that the trial had collapsed due to Judge Alistair McCreath’s belief of “serious misconduct” on the part of undercover reporter Mazher Mahmood, a witness for the prosecution, at a pre-trial hearing.

“It just all got too much for me,” said Contostavlos.

“I’m not going to sit here and want a pity party. It was a dark time, a very dark moment but I’ve got through it and I am here today.

“I felt like my life was over. Like someone had taken my life away. They took it out of my hands and took it away in a second.”

The singer admitted that she feared the prospect of imprisonment but had to come to terms with the idea.

“The biggest fear for me was losing my livelihood; something I have worked for from the age of 11 years old,” she explained.

“I’ve not known anything else, it’s all I have had. It’s my life.

“I just woke up one day and it was taken out of hands. I had no control. I couldn’t work, I couldn’t speak to clear my name because of legal reasons. I just had to sit in silence just being bashed left, right and centre by the media – and being portrayed as a monster.”

Contostavlos said that the ordeal has made her a “paranoid wreck”, and she feels like she’s “always looking over [her] shoulder”.

“I locked myself off a lot from the world so there were only a few people that could contact me,” she continued. “Marvin and Rochelle [Humes] are two people that really had my back throughout – and Niall [Horan] and Rylan [Clark].”

The former X Factor judge also said she believes that class played a part in drug allegations.

“I’ve openly admitted to smoking weed,” she reiterated. “There are a lot of people in this industry that have dabbled in cocaine and I am one of the very few that haven’t and don’t.

“To me it feels a bit of a class thing as well. There are certain people of a different class that can get off very lightly in certain situations and it gets laughed off.

“With me everything gets made to feel a lot worse – because of the class thing – because at times I do get shown as a bit of a rebel of the industry but I am actually quite the opposite.”

Contostavlos is unsure about how the allegations will affect her future too, adding: “I have no idea what is going to happen – no idea how the public will feel about me coming back. I’ve been portrayed as a monster. I’m going to try and go back to what I love again.”

In a separate charge, the singer was found guilty of assaulting celebrity blogger Savvas Morgan during an altercation at V Festival last year and has been fined £200 as well as a £20 victim surcharge, £100 compensation and £2,700 in costs. Contostavlos is set to appeal.